toxic

this was a smiling happy, not a care in the world me....this is when i first came to sugarman's.....and boy have my thoughts on people changed and i am going to name names know and i hope you all read this cuz i want the world to know what scumbags really are......first let me start off by saying that the people that live in this little neck of the woods that i have come to live in need to find something else to do with their lives except talk about other people and try to take what ever you have cuz , you know what i don't know why.....first i want to say ron darling, you are the biggest phoney of them all.....i am a straight women and i am more gay then you will ever be....you need to learn how to keep you big fucking mouth shut,cuz shit just keeps poring out of it....i saw how you treated sheila, so when you back stabbed me i got it...that is what you do, cuz you are jealous of everyone that does good, you begrudge people everything and you are the biggest crybaby.....maybe you should learn how to be a man cuz you act like a child.....you caused more trouble with me, you were jealous of the relationship that i had with floyd so you opened up that mouth of yours to cause trouble, you talked about him behind his back, and said a lot if not nice things, and even when i asked you to stop telling me shit you continued on.....what was the problem i liked him more then you.....so you created chaos where none existed and goaded me on.....cuz you thrive on that....maybe that why your sister doesn't speak to you and you have no family....i know what my shortcomings are and my defects of character are,,,you think you are a snob, but your nothing but a little snot......and do me favor when people ask about me say nothing turn your face like you did to me that day.....and stop spreading rumors you are good for that too.....and will your at it stop gossiping about everyone, cuz it is going to bite you in the ass , and i hope it is sooner or later.....done with you....

now let's more on to fast eddie, let's see i needed a car, you found out that i lent floyd money and you were the one that told me about the magistrate, to get my money back and you would get me a car....i should have remembered what a slime you were from the first weekend that i was up there, cuz you told me i should be a hooker.....and i gave you a piece of my ny mind......so with you and ron pushing me to get my money from floyd, you because you wanted my money and ron , and we are done with him, but he couldn't stand the relationship......and what i winded up doing was losing one of the only friends i had up here, treated him badly, embassed him,i made a fool out of myself cuz one ws greedy and the other was jealous.......then to make matter worse ed, you doubled the price of the car, just so you can have the money that i freely lent floyd.....and by the way i don't understand how all of you say the nastiest things behind people's backs and when they are in front of you , you are all smiley.....and 2 weeks later the car blows up and you don't even say your sorry, and when another friend tells you you should give me the money you made off of the car, you play dumb.....karma got me for what i did to floyd and i can't wait till karma catches up with you......so i was stupid enough to listen to the both of you......and guess what you couldn't shine floyd's shoes.......you want this taught me is that i never want to be like either of you......i would rather stay crazy ole me and live through my heart.....then live through my wallet.....see here is the thing.....i come from a great family and i will never do without, and their is always someone that has my back....is that what your problem is....i am woman and i have more balls then the both of you put together as a matter of fact my balls are so big i have to put them on my chest to keep from chafing......and you know what i find even more amusing is that you can't even look me in the eye and i will stare both you motherfuckers down........you were never my friend cuz you don't know the meaning of the word......and ron if you think i disrespected you maybe you deserved it and someone had to do it and i was lucky it was me.....cuz you are a phoney to everyone i have seen it in action......i will forgive the both of you, because the forgiveness is for me, but i will never forget.....and you really do have to watch out for italians from brooklyn cuz

what i have been reading....

i love to read..i think reading is one of the greatest gifts....and i will say that i have learned more from reading books that i ever learned in school.....and got into constant fights in any class that taught history.....cuz all those teachers lied or didn't read enough books on the subject......            i can understand people that can't read i can teach you...and i have come across many how can't....but won't i don't understand is people who DON'T read.....one of the best things about my childhood was a newspaper we got every month, and you can order books and only books and every month i was allowed to order 5 books... i had a father who bought me books, a truly smart man.....and thank you for giving me the love of books and reading.....just a side note the people that have had to move my books for me not so happy that i love to read.......

anyway last week i read this bio on chanel.....i think she was a wonderful artist, i would say ahead of her time but i have read many books from that era and it was just TIME.....i would say that she was a genius, but come on she didn't split the atom.....she just invented and sold a style of dressing that still exists....but some fun....she didn't own chanel #5....she had some fun friends that i would have love to hang out with.....she was generous to her friends and family most of her life......and sipped a lot of tea with the nazi;s.......i am just saying.......and i would love to own anything that she made.....but in my life it would kind of be chanel car, chanel car, and i would have to say the car will win.........

the next book i read was about the imperial royal russian family the romanovs.....let me just say this they all died that fateful night, the whole family.....it was not a good night for the romanovs and their loyal servants......lenin was mean....it was proven with DNA....any one that claimed to be part of the royal dead family is nothing but a lair.....i am starting to read "miss peregrine's home for peculiar children.....and all things oz......get off the internet and crack open a real book.......

ebay.....

just a short little note to say that i am listing some stuff for sale on ebay.....my ebay name is fabrika57 come and take a look....

this is my life......

i posted the fall out shelter cuz when i get done with a few of the scumbags from sugarman's flea market, their going to need it....not pulling any punches and i have no problem naming names....but i have never met such a bunch of lowlives in my life, and you all know who i mean....they'll stab their own mother's in the back for a dollar....all i can say is i paid karma, hope i can be around to watch it be paid back.....and be careful who you ask for help, cuz their are so many thieves up here in good ole PA.....snake you are a snake and a thief and will remain a junkie for the rest of your life....cuz that's just who you are....once again karma needs to pay someone a visit, and if i ever see someone in this area with my boots on i will rip them off their fucking feet with no problem.....i am sorry that all you people never had anything in your lives, and the only way to get it is to steal.....here is the good news as long as i am not the stealer all is good.....cuz i am one of the have's......and let me tell you what i have that most of you will never have and suffer from lack of... A FAMILY THAT LOVES ME AND WILL DO ANYTHING FOR ME..... I AM BLESSED and your not.....too bad......and if most of you were on fire and i had a glass of water, i'd drink it......

now for the good news i am listening to the one and only johnny thunders......the king of punk.....love you baby and you were taken way too soon..... cleaning up my studio and can't wait til i can start to work in it....i am planning on making ooak (one of a kind) children's clothing line , from vintage clothing and fabric, just have to find a place to sell them, cuz they would never go for the selling point at sugarman's.....speaking of which god please open another door for me and let me have the courage and faith to walk through it cuz the flea market is getting real tired , if you know what i mean.....it was a blast , oh yeah and now it is time to find something new......i need to be around creative people and not money hunger people......

and i know today is friday the first day that sugarman's is open on a friday and i rather be at home cleaning my studio then there....you can all tell me how it went tomorrow......but i can't be there any longer then i have too.....it messes with my peace of mind....but getting back to it's friday i am making porkchops with apples, onions and mushrooms, with real mash potatoes....know the catholics skin just crawled.....but when i die i think the last thing god is going to take into consideration is my diet.......