my journals

ok so i was going to post these photos to flickr.....but it is having a fit....so i will post and write about them here.......

these are pages from an old calender datebook that i am pretty sure i gessoed and added some paint and color to first...now when i am journaling anything is game, just like when i make "real art"....i use anything and everything, nothing is save from me......i just go along and do what i feel like doing at any given time........i like workin in spiral books.....one thing i like to do first to the book is lay the first layer down in this case gesso and paint.......and then i just add stuff as live happens....i go back and forth and forward......but i do like to get to a point and say this journal is done....

ok i name names, so if you don't want you name mentioned play nice, oh but i add the nice people too...i must have well over 100 journals as i have send before i have been journaling since i was 12, i have at least 32 books that are just what i call glue books with pictures that i have collected over the years, more on them at another date........

i use a lot of clothing tags, cuz i am forever buying clothes.....another bad habit i picked up when i was 5........and i love stickers and rub ons......did i ever tell you that i have been cutting photos out of magazines since i was 5,(alot started at that age), i used to cut them out and put them under my bed, and at the time i shared a bed with my ocd sister , who used to pull them out from her side and throw them away......my first journal was all animals sadly i don't have that one......rats......

this one is for johnny.........the punk........love and miss him.........

ok i was going to add more photos, but either the web is having a fit or my pc is not co operating with me.....and if by chance you have read any of this please let me know, give me a shout out.....pass the link to friends and such....i would love to hear what you all think......no matter what.......have a good one while the sun is shining.....

keep kalm and karry on....

keep calm and carry on.....i have been doing it for years aka the game of life, survivor etc.....so what does one do on good friday when they never ever bought into that papal crap that came out of europe in which i can only say the fucking dark ages.......and please tell me it isn't true that the candy is just a bribe.....remember what your parents told you about taking candy from strangers......do you ever fucking wonder how much money corporate america is making off of chocolate easter bunnies......c'on the peeps alone...(nuke for about 10 seconds) awesome.....anyhoo 3 of my  favorite things are in the picture......fashionstying, cards and books.....and yeah i am going to have real printed out photos of my art work and sell them as cards.....i will post where ever people buy things.....and i have paypal......ok so i goT 2 SAD letters today, one that says the bank of america is something something foreclosing on my house, which i find real funny cuz i have been in foreclose process for 4 years now with what ever was that corrupt one{gee that narrowed it down} with washington in there name, you the one that when the shit hit the fan took the largest payout/bonus in corporate history....you 2 fuckers fight it out, you can have it.....just be gone already, i walked away a while ago....i was done before you.....and the other exciting letter is that my unemployment is going to end....but that only means i just have to figure out more ways to earn money....and i do and don;t want to leave the flea market cuz i do make money there, but i have no way of getting there anymore....swear to god true story one of the ladies that picked me up was arrested as she already had an ankle bracelet on her leg and is being held on 250k bail along with her husband another 250k.....and i don;t feel sorry for one bit....greed is not good.....really people, haven;t you all learned that by now....i swear i have seen things that no nyc girl has seen before, and man, i have seen a lot in this life......but i digress so i need transportation, the bus system is only good on sat and i could get a half a day in at best.....but better then nothing........now i really wish my friend carole was here so i could talk to her as i organize my creative space......and sewing and paper, will have separate areas in the house......i think i better add another picture or something and i only use my own.......

look more books ........i love to read and have been catching up on reading cuz i love to read.....now i just finished reading this morning "miss peregrine home for peculiar children" and all i am saying is that i wanted a better ending.......i thought it was an interesting read ...and i loved the old photos's being a collector of them.....but i still wanted a different ending.  i did come up with a few of my own, but dumb me didn;t realize that the book was about time travel.....i see a second book....until the end.....i kind of wanted the kid to be a total loon.....but i think the government already did time travel in the late 50's i think something about monkey's...if my memory serves me well......i think i will go and read L.frank baum.....i think he know  thing or 2 about time travel.....do i go too much, if i was talking to you in person, this pretty much what i would be saying and talking.....ask anyone of the people that know me....whether they like me or not....cuz if you don;t like me that means i stood up for myself and you couldn't handle it....so now you hate on me......news flash i am too small to hate, so i wish everyone in this world the same as i wish for me......and most of yar i don't even think about and time fades lots........i am writing like i am in one of my manic states....oh gee i am////////what joy///////.....i will continue next time.....carry on and keep calm...

what i have been reading....

i love to read..i think reading is one of the greatest gifts....and i will say that i have learned more from reading books that i ever learned in school.....and got into constant fights in any class that taught history.....cuz all those teachers lied or didn't read enough books on the subject......            i can understand people that can't read i can teach you...and i have come across many how can't....but won't i don't understand is people who DON'T read.....one of the best things about my childhood was a newspaper we got every month, and you can order books and only books and every month i was allowed to order 5 books... i had a father who bought me books, a truly smart man.....and thank you for giving me the love of books and reading.....just a side note the people that have had to move my books for me not so happy that i love to read.......

anyway last week i read this bio on chanel.....i think she was a wonderful artist, i would say ahead of her time but i have read many books from that era and it was just TIME.....i would say that she was a genius, but come on she didn't split the atom.....she just invented and sold a style of dressing that still exists....but some fun....she didn't own chanel #5....she had some fun friends that i would have love to hang out with.....she was generous to her friends and family most of her life......and sipped a lot of tea with the nazi;s.......i am just saying.......and i would love to own anything that she made.....but in my life it would kind of be chanel car, chanel car, and i would have to say the car will win.........

the next book i read was about the imperial royal russian family the romanovs.....let me just say this they all died that fateful night, the whole family.....it was not a good night for the romanovs and their loyal servants......lenin was mean....it was proven with DNA....any one that claimed to be part of the royal dead family is nothing but a lair.....i am starting to read "miss peregrine's home for peculiar children.....and all things oz......get off the internet and crack open a real book.......

good stuff

ok so you know this blog is the rant and what ever the fuck happens in my life....cuz, i moi, live one interesting and fascinating life....i am like the life style of the poor and infamous.....what can i say i was always an outsider.....never ran with the in crowd, i was the in crowd. that;s me at my daughter's graduation with my step grandchild......i am not ready to do granny and i don't know if i ever will be...but he sure is one cute guy.

so here i am in the new place did i tell you all that i moved to the projects in scranton, and everyday, i say to myself "self how the fuck did you wind up here" i don't know how but i know why and i will be here for another 3 years and then i have to get back to the city of my birth , somehow, someway, i have to get back to nyc.....but the good news is that my daughter finally got instate tuition today so we have to be here till graduation.......this is my bedroom still filled with bins and bags with my clothes.....i came from a 10 room house, with a finished basement and a room that just held my clothes and a huge studio space......to the tiniest 4 room apartment that ever was......god didn't i used to be a princess in another life........and i love my clothes, cuz they are not just clothes they reflect who i am and what i love and i have my own style.....and clothes are important to me.....i fucking love clothes......and i have some clothes forever, and we don't ever discuss all the clothes that i had from london, italy and paris, and that great shoe store ej robbins, that got ruined in a flood......one of the goals of the week is to get all my clothes in order and it is not easy........but i will do it and get rid of the clothes that just don't work for me anymore.....i like natural fabric, wool, cotton, linen, silk,...soft and easy, but black and punk, and with silver on them......i have no intention of every going back to work for corporate america, so i can get rid of what i call my stuffy work clothes.....although my work clothes were not as stuffy as some........

and then i have to get my studio in order......i hate moving, and yeah i have a lot of stuff, but that is because i always took care of the stuff that was important to me.......i will show before and after photos.......today i am going to work on setting up the bathroom, i got a new shower curtain and rug......ok will i don't have all that much to say today......except i am breathing a little easy and my beautiful daughter gets to stay in school......all is good.....

i just want to breathe.............

on so many levels, you have no idea.....i hate when i feel sick and i get this bronco stuff in my chest......as if my head where not foggy enough all the time.....it now feels heavy and foggy and stuffy......maybe the mountain air isn't what i need......anyway i am here til allie finishes school....i have so much to do and no energy to do it....i hate when that happens.....so i am putting stuff in it's place as i see it....i have to hang the living room curtains today.....and they need to be ironed first.....but i found the pole that i need to hang them......i have been sleeping so much, but i think that when you don't feel so well , sleep might just be the thing you need.......i have to take all these stupid meds.....that i don;t even remember if i take right anymore......

i just want to feel normal again..........hahahahahahah that is funny......cuz why would i want to feel normal.....and what is it anyway....i need to get this house in  order.......and get allie settled at school.....i always have so much to do, even when i don;t feel like doing it.......

it's here again

Ok so I am gonna hafta, write in word cuz I keep losing stuff that I write…..i hate to write in word, it fixes grammar and spelling that I know is “WRONG’ but I know….it is wrong so it is not write…..and I have the rite to write you know……well I have my yearly bronco in the chest shit that I get every year between fib and march……I know when it arrives and I know what I need to do…..but this year they gave me steroids….and I have to say it is going away faster and I feel better…..cuz I was in bed for almost 4 days and did nothing but sleep……which I think I needed it…..or I would not have slept so long…….and I got the chill out…..it snows every morning and never sticks…..i like the country up here…..now I live in hilltop….and I am on the fucking top of the mountain….i feel like heidi, not to be confused with Heidi Klum……heidi who lived on the mountain with her old grandfather…….so I finally have real tv after being without it for almost 2 months……and didn’t have internet access for almost 2 weeks…..you can live without anything……ok, today I swore if I had any energy I would try to straighten out the studio…….but the day is young….

almost done

ok, today we make the last run to the new place......tonight i sleep there.....last night a friend that i can always count on showed up moved my stuff for me at 10o'clock at night....i love when i do stuff with him, it is always like a dope deal down to we were with the uhaul, making cash withdrawals at the atm at 1:30 in the morning.......and you def know your in ghettoland when it is after 12 and people are walking their infants out at night.......god i am gonna need a big dog........next photos of the new place........i need to make a cozy home for myself.......

packing up the truck 101

here are some "journals" from the last 10 years there are more, there just in a different place.  so right now i am into packing 101 the easier way to move a lot of stuff, i want to move all my studio stuff today.....i took the 3 white shelves from sugarman's......and i have the white craft cabinets here.....so all the furniture with be white for now.....but white is good, cuz all my baskets and boxes are different colors....and i have some vintage boxes that will show up great against the white......tomorrow i tackle my clothes......you don't even want to know.........but i am so into moving.....out of this place.......

kick back sunday night........

this is my kitty cat shema when she was a kitten .....i resued her for $20 bucks and a t shirt.  she is one crazy cat and smart as a whip......she and bear are playing tag your it.....anyway resting up for moving tomorrow.....just wanted to drop in and say hi....all is good....and what is this noise i here about facebook timeline, that's not like dateline right.....

journals......

ok so if you haven't heard by now, i have been journaling since i was 12.  i have every journal that i have ever written in. the older journals are keep in a green footlocker that has wheels.  the journals from the past 10 years are on in a bookcase in my bedroom.  i have many different types of journals, but the constant thing about them is they all reflect who i am , and what i think.......the photos here are what i would call my journal scrapbook....it is just one of those big plain white page books you can get at any bookstore. this is the book that i put "most" of papers in from where i have been and then i write notes.  i also just go through it at times and place various clippings from magazines.....and when i get to that page i might or might not journal about the page............i have another art journal that i working in right name i was inspired by an art journal and tutorial by an artist named caatje.....http://caatjesartsystuff.blogspot.com i am having fun with it as i can draw, play, doodle and what ever in it.......at any given time i have at least 5 different journals around....i think i have one in every room and my purse.  i have some journals that have taken me 5 years to complete from cover to cover......and it is funny how one changes.... i did morning pages ala julia cameron for 3 years straight and i can't begin to tell you want an eye opening life changing experience that was....for anyone that needs to get a handle on their life i strongly recommend morning pages....if you don't know what they are just ask.

i received as a gift from dover the notebooks of leonardo de vinci, and i swore to myself that i would leave more notebooks to then him....and i may well be on my way.....

the thing is i was getting confused by all the names people call these books, diaries, journals, notebooks, art journals, altered books, smash books....til i just started calling them "the big fucking book of everything.....it just makes it easier for me and i hate to have to be pushed in a box......and a rose by any other name......but i do have to say i like the idea of putting colorant on the books first, but then again i like to see just how the journal will evolve.....and like all my art if i can get it to stay down it stays there......and there are always loss stuff , stuffed in the pages.....all i have left to say if you don't have a journal, you should.......someone once told me they will be the greatest gift that i will leave my children......if you would like to see more of my journal pages check out my flickr site.....just go to the flickr icon on the right and hit coffee with gloria . and look for the set that says journal pages.......i love feedback so please leave some good or bad....cuz it is all good

DYE

i just put a whole load of clothes that i loved, but where not black into a blackdye bath.....some of them are coming out this purplery grey black, while some tops that had graphics on them are looking really good......and they where kool clothes i bought at a thrift store, well most of them.....did i tell you that i like thrifts and have A>D>D.....i thought you would have guessed it by now.....anyway i will show you them when they are done.....

so this is something else i have been working on while waiting to move.....i have got back to simple handwork....it feels good.  these are random bead strings that i made from all lose beads that i found while packing up......and some that i just grabbed out of bead jars......a relative of a relative passed away and i got a whole crate of white bed linens (the good stuff) while i love looking at beautiful white beds, lets just say it would not remain white around me for long......so i dyed them these really hot colors......one of the sheets i am making a simple curtain out of...you to straight stitches across the top.....well anyway i am going to drape them on the curtains over they are hang......remind me to take photo's......when i set up my new home.....i feel like I'm going home for the first time in a long time.....but i still always not regret , but feel bad that i am still not in sayville ny.....but life goes on and i lived there a very long time ago........but i loved it and the city was a train ride away and i could walk to the train......amazing.....how times have changed.....i now live in a place where the buses stop running at 6.....

monday, monday....

another dreary day.....i hate deary weather.....just rain already or snow.....countdown to moving, i am hoping that i can start to move on wednesday....i am up to my neck in boxes, i can't even pack anymore as i am running out of run to walk......my bedroom has become grand central (yeah don't i wish} cuz the living room is piled high with boxes......if you were blind you would kill yourself....so since we can't fast forward to wednesday, we have to take it on day at a time........

what i am working now

so i have come of an age, where they just don't make the kind of clothes i want to wear everyday....and now that i don' have a real job.....i am just an arTist.....ha....i have taken to altering and up cycling clothes....now for those of you that know me...know i have some style rules....i like black, and no matter how many time i try to wear colorful clothes i always come back to black.....i have some color for accent.....i will live in leggings for the rest of my life....i don't even own a pair of jeans.....hate them.....i love t' shirts and have been cutting mine up since the 70's only we didn't have books back them to tell you how.....we just cut them and pinned them back together.....i pretty much do the same thing now although i have added stitches and beads......i like long tops.....and jackets.....silver, metal, studs, pearls,leather, lace, whips and chains.....i love cowboy boots and only wear real cowboy boots from texas.....i love good bags and shows.....and i can rock just about anything.....now i like to wear sweater type things.....and lately when i shop(maybe cuz i can't afford top designer clothes anymore) oh i can and i do....but at this point once again i have to stop listening to what other people say and dress the way i want.....and in the summer i only mostly wear dresses.
Ok back to the picture....i am up cycling clothes now, so i had this over sweater...dare i say it got to tight.....so i cut it down the middle and a little on the side seams and i got my jar of black vintage buttons and using them as trim......i have a stack of clothes i want to alter, but they are packed away....i have not really sewn in years.....but boy can i sew and make stuff.....so that is what is up for now.......see ya soon.......

the story of the bus.......

Don’t ever forget that I am from Brooklyn, nyc…….and when we get thrown under the bus, we pick our asses up and keep going……I am just saying….

snow day

Well I skipped out on going up the eyeon today……that would be to sugarman’s ….you know what I am still amazed out is how long it takes for me to realize that something, is toxic to me…..but sugarman’s I must say I am now declaring you toxic….i will bid what ever time I have left there and then say, SO LONG , FAREWELL, IT’S BEEN GOOD TO KNOW YA…..and git…cuz that flea market is like a hole to dante’s inferno, it is sooooooooooo black and negative…..but it was a good stepping stone….and it opened my eyes up to a like of things…..i learned about me, mostly, cuz that is part of my job…..and how to react to the other , now here I was going to say assholes’ is that ok….good. ok so this is how I react to the other fucking assholes’ I just pretend they don’t exist anymore….and I have a magic wand, that I can do it with, but it only works for me……I am so sorry about that…..but I do have a collection of fairy dust…..i am going to use different names here to protect the innocent and not so innocent…it you are reading  it and think that it’s about you, well, DARLING, your so vain……so my kool across the street, neighbor, he is from Holland, and they have the cutest kid….smart like a whip and all princessed out….i would hate to be the one that has to tell her….but she only 3 so I will let her live the fantasy for a few more years and break it to her gently…..i raised/ing 2 daughters…..they are truly a blessing…..but if you have children you understand……it is tough sometimes to be a parent and be yourself….i forget how old I was when I stopped being afraid  by my parents and them of me…..i was a wild child, yes in deed…..my kids are still think I am nuts….like I was told it is kind of having a mom that is an artist, and is a different kind of mom…..but I could/can be the only mother I know how to be…..and I have beautiful children…..both in college…..2 different paths/2 different children……have to treat them differently, but the same……oh I was talking about my neighbors, anyway he cleaned a path for me as it snowed all last night and this morning here in sticks of the northeast……mountains are good…..mountains are good….anyway I went to wall mart today and I am sorry to say that spent money there but….i wanted a crockpot to cook in and they had one on clearance(the angel)…in red and I had to have it cuz it was on my list…….bought some food…there were no remarkable fashion attire today as it was snowing so people were pretty much clothed up warm….although the guy next door was outside shoveling the car , with shorts and flip flops…..you know what I say “whatever floats your boat” and makes ya happy….ok I am staying in and working on a few projects….my journal, a beading project and one that has vintage black buttons….i will show photos when done…..anyway off to listen to something and create…….one more thing it’s an allie day, from now on all snow days are allie days…….my daughter used to stay up all night hoping it would snow, so, there would be no school………..

it's all about meeeeeeeeeeeeee........

First let me start off by saying that it is all ART to me……I am a crazy self taught artist who still has lots to learn…I am free…at a high price….i love to journal since I was 12 and have every {art journal} book I ever wrote in….i love to dance….sing ….play….rock n roll….create…snap photos….bead….paint…write…think…..read….watch tv (but the internet is breaking that habit]….i love words and I like to play around with the English language, and someone once told me that you have to know the rules in order to break them…..i break them anyway…..anyhoo,  this is just me everyday person living in the everyday world and making the most of it…..and don’t ask if I can do better, I am doing the best I can…..and I always want better……